Lighter Life Journey

I have had some up and down moments during the last few days. I wieghed in at my pop in and on Monday I had lost fifteen pounds in twelve days so obviously that is great news. I dont feel that much different but the odd piece of clothing fits a little easier so of course I am delighted to be on the right track and so far have not strayed once.

Thats not to say it has been easy. NO it hasn't but I just keep my eyes on the goal and remind myself that what ever diet I was doing I would not be eating half the things I have wanted to eat.

My Dad is over from Canada and it has been get togethers over meals non stop this week. That has made it hard, watching everyone eating ~Sunday lunch and me cooking for everyone last night and not having a bite but I am still on the wagon and looking forward to WI tom.

I still battle with myself constantly and somehow am hanging on in there. At times I feel angry and alone and feel very much an outsider in the home, but we are on two weeks tomorrow. The time will pass whether or not I do this or not so might as well come out of this in October fitter leaner and happier with myself.

Best day so far, maybe made a little easier by last nights group session where I weighed in ten pounds lighter. Very pleased with that for the first week. It seems all the feelings I have had are shared by my fellow lighter lifers and I feel a lot better knowing I am not going through this alone.
Today I felt far more positive and looking forward to dropping the first stone next week hopefully.

Its not easy and I still look at the food I am cooking and sometimes feel a bit left out and angry that I am not a normal person but I take strength from the fact I have taken the first step.

A few days off mainly due to the kids being on here all the time whenever I am around and me working. I go to WI tonight and am looking forward to seeing how everyone else is feeling, I hope I am not the only one that thinks its very hard and its a permanent battle in my head. I have not strayed once this week so hopefully the weigh in will reflect that.
I am still finding not eating anything at all tough but I still think for me its the only way to go. Lets see what tonights loss is and then plan ahead for next week.

Pop in tonight, to check I am on the right track but I did sneak a weigh in at home (only about twice a day!!) so I know things are going ok. will update when I know the official result.

This is not an easy thing to do at all, went to my sisters last night and resisted all food and drink and tried to explain my quest for the next ninety six days ( not that I am counting or anything)

All OK in the morning it just seems to get worse as the day wears on but I am sure the journey will be cleansing not just for the body but also for the mind.

Three days successfully completed and I dont feel too bad at all. Pop in tomorrow and I am looking forward to that as the scales at home are showing positive results. It definitely is not an easy thing to do, well its not for me anyway, but I just keep picturing the end results and somehow hour by hour get through the day.

Actually its fine while I am at work its the evenings I struggle with a little bit but I literally take it half an hour at a time until its time for bed.

Off to my sisters tonight which is the first real challenge out in compnay, when we get together there is usually wine and nibbles around but I have warned her in advance and am determined not to have to go through the first three days again.

Still not used to the massive water intake but the up side is my skin looks and feels fab.

I realise its still very early days but so far so good !

Hi

I have decided to keep a written record of my journey with lighter life.

Hopefully this will take my mind off food and remind myself along the way how I feel.

I have read lots of other stories about people who feel great and strong from day one and honestly thats not how I feel at all.

I am on day two, started yesterday morning with the raspberry milkshake, not sure about that one and then for luch tried the chocolate in the new shaker I was given at the group, not great hard to mix it all in.

Had thai chilli soup later on bit better and finished the day with banana mousse- ok

All this and four litres of water which resulted in un-countable trips to the loo but nothing worthwhile comes without a price so we are told.

I am not naturally very slim and love to eat- not a great combination. I also love clothes and want to look good so something had to change.

I have tried numerous ways to lose weight with varying degrees of success.

Lost three and a half stone by taking tablets and felt great at the end and managed to keep it off for about three year but been four stone overweight for about three years now so I have taken the plunge and decided to do something about it.

I am scared to say that this will be my last dieting effort because I know I have failed so many times before but I have at least taken the first step so am on my way.

If anyone out there is about to embark on a similar journey then please drop me a line.

The group meeting seemd Ok a mixed bunch and a good laugh, actually looking forward to seeing how everyone goes next Wed. I was a bit worried about going as thought it would be a bit like the stereotypical alcoholics meetings on TV... Hi I am Tracey and I eat too much!! But it was not like that at all and dont let the group sessions put you off it was very friendly.

Well off to do house work and keep my mind off food, until its time to cook for the family of course, then its cook serve and get out of the way asap, but looking forward to my pop in on Monday and seeing if I am on the right track.